I feel…

I feel… like I should be like the writer in the “Road Less Travelled”.
I’m reaching a fork in the road,
should I take the well worn one
or should I set my foot on the obviously less travelled road?

I feel… decisions are tough! tough! tough!
that’s why I don’t like making them,
so much effort is put into making one,
that’s why I don’t like changing them,
but sometimes it is inevitable,
however, I am occasionally flexible.

I feel… like I’m on a fence leaning towards a grass lawn in a darker shade.
The greener side is getting a little far away.
Should I push myself back up and stay on the fence to enjoy both?
Should I continue leaning over and tumble into the darker grass lawn
and never ever set foot upon the greener grass?

P.S. *This here post is so darn cryptic I need an anti-crypter to read it.. geez*


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Faking It

I was talking to a “friend” yesterday and there was something he/she said that left me surprised, angry, shocked *fairly similar to surprise* and in denial *probabaly*.

He/she said, *i vaguely remember, so if you want to correct me, go ahead*

That means 2 things, you’re a good faker and you’re never happy“.

I did say that you can tell me my bad points from the previous post, and that I don’t really take them very well… but this is pushing it don’t you think? I don’t know what he/she meant went saying I’m a good faker. Means I hide my feelings very well? I don’t appear to be who I really am, from the way I blog to the way I type to the way I speak and ask questions? I’m just pretending to be someone I’m not?

I forgot where the conversation started so I forgot all about the “you’re never happy” part… If I’m never happy I would be dead by now.. anyway… that isn’t the main point since I feel it ain’t true… I feel the entire sentence is false anyway…

I just want to know why I’m a good faker? good faker in like I can win oscars kind? or the 2 faced kind? or the many faces for many occasions kind? anyone can say anything about me, but it ain’t necessarily true.

I think the “conversation” started when I asked… *Not the exact words or sequence*

“why do u think I’m asking a question all the time?”

“want to be different” “blogging way, questioning way, …. way ”

Doesn’t everyone want to be different? Ok maybe not everyone, there are some that just want to just blend in, there are some that are happy the way they are and there are some that don’t want to just cruise along.

oh yes.. he/she also mentioned that my blog seems bombastic. Probably that’s why he/she thinks I’m trying to be someone that I’m not.

First things first, bombastic in what way? I ain’t sure, but if I were to guess, he/she probably meant my “writing” or maybe the words that I use.

I don’t think my writing or the words I use are bombastic. I always believe that I use simple english *it might be a false belief, I dunno*. However, a few readers did mention that what I wrote is deep. Some of them *most of the older ones*, maybe. Most of them, not so. I shall now give an example, some might find it difficult to read english blogs but reading mandarin blogs are a total breeze, for me it’s the exact opposite, I might have to use one whole hour to read a normal mandarin entry. They don’t use very difficult mandarin words either. *I think I’m slightly going outta topic*

Actually I kind of forgot what’s the purpose of me typing this out again… *ah to vent my anger I suppose, it has to go somewhere….* Anyway… all i want to say is that…

Not everyone is the same, I might seem like a faker, which people can go ahead and think so, and may have a bombastic blog according to one, but then again U don’t really know me now do you?

heck I don’t even know certain things about me. Plus I don’t blog everything that happends around me, I only blog about certain things and make them fairly vague *sometimes* so this blog is a vague representation of myself. Yes, information can be gathered and sometimes I wonder how much, but I don’t think it will reveal anything too personal.

Continue reading as you wish, but I won’t change the way I blog, the way I type, the way I seem to ask questions and other things that make me “seem” different.

Cheerios! btw I watched Three Kingdoms today.. not bad.. though I feel Maggie Q doesn’t look like ladies of the olden days… hahahahha

Finally… “I’m it” again…

Hmm… my blog seems pretty un-wordy lately.. so time to add some word count. LOL wanted to blog last week but time was of essence so no time was alotted for me to type gibberish for my readers to read. ehehe..

btw, wordpress changed the layout of the main area and I only noticed that I can actually add music to my post.. LOL sod arn blur… anyway… I just got tagged and feel pretty free.. so continue the tag I shall…


It’s a “Remove-One-Question-And-Answer-The-Rest-Tag”? *[ v ], I don’t think this is the title…*

Instructions: Remove one question from below, add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list. List them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?

Hmm… tough for someone that doesn’t have someone to be inspired by… I only have one… Dato’ Tony Fernandez… but erm.. hmm.. this doesn’t seem right…

who does inspire me???

2. Have you given your first kissed away?

ever watched the movie “never been kissed”… enough said…

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? why?

[ v ], cause she wants to take me.. so I take her back lar… ehehe…

zyenn, cause she can cook… LOL *

*who’s in my list?*

I don’t need anymore story tellers… hmmm… hmmm…

can I just bring 2?

Coffeeholic? but then she might erm… die off due to the lack off coffee…..

hmmm… gothic mischief then…. so she can tell me more stories.. that way I won’t get bored.. and no one else on that island would get bored.. hehehe… what a nice situation…

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

Hahahha.. this is tough… hmmm… I’ll pick… Switzerland.. cause I want to touch snow.. LOL and then there are the chocolates… mmmmmmm….. wonder if they have chocolate snow… heheh Heaven…

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

find out the purpose of human life. wahhahahaha

6. Describe yourself in one word.

Lost. until my dream comes true.. wahhahaha

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

Lose myself, motivation wise.

8. If you won $1 million, what would you do?

oddly enough I actually thought of this before… but there is so many things.. wait until I have my million then ask me this question again…

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

shyly no.. :p… don’t ask me why.. I will definitely say… “I’m shy.”

10. List out 3 good points of the person that tagged you.

Artistic, neat (very very extremely… until it’s to the point of being obssesive compulsive…. ok maybe not so… neat) and determined.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?

wish hmm.. i guess what you wish for won’t neccesarily come true.. so I’ll rather not wish no keep myself from being disappointed… hahahhaha… aha! only one would do.. unconditional love… kekeke

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

hmm.. hate is a strong word *gosh i think i sound like zyenn.. gasp!*… Let’s see… have I hated anyone before… hmmm…. I guess one could say I dislike “2 faced people” *gasp! now I suddenly sound like Louise… Louise – 2 Faced*

13. What is your ambition?

to earn tonnes of money… then I can laugh like an evil person… muhahahhahahahha…. *actually haven’t really found one.. so earning money it is first*

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would your rather they keep quiet?

Of course I would like people to tell me… but I might not like what they say that’s all… heheh.. tough eh?? just tell me lar…

15. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

Odd, isn’t this fairly similar to #10?

one word… Friend… lol…

I’ll find another word… “Striver” isn’t really a real word….

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

Being more aggressive… not physically though..

17. What’s the last shocking thing you’ve seen or heard?

someone went to a gym and died? scary scary stuff…. *btw the gym wasn’t the cause of death*

18. What do you wish to have now?

Financially free… *darn whAt the heck am I talking bout? am I even financially un-free????* My parents be financially free then…

19. What was the worst thing you ever did when you were angry?

jee I don’t remember… Pissed off with everyone?

20. What was the sweetest thing someone ever did for you?

hmmm… actually more like the whole class singing happy birthday.. hahah odd odd…. very extremely odd…

The 8 people I tag are….. ………. ……….. hmm I tag whoever that owns a blog, that has free time on thier hands, and so happen to stumbled into this blog and just read rather crappy answers to fairly good questions and feel that they can answer the questions way better than how I did. If no one fits that criteria.. then that is so sad… LOL


TIme to go.. cheerios! see you in the near future… I’ll be back.